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| Okay everyone, I have something very important to tell all of you. This is going to hurt everyone and piss people off I know that. But, all of you should realize that you don't know what it is like to be put in this position 'til you are. It's a fucking roller coaster and it is not fun what so ever. You might think you know how I feel and know what to say but you really don't. You have no idea how hard it is.
I am 9 weeks pregnant. Being pregnant changes you and everyone extremely close to. More than you think. Now, I have battled myself for the last couple weeks about this and it does hurt for what my final choice is. And you can all hate me if you would like, but it's not going to solve anything. This is my choice and mine alone. And any of you who think it's all Joe is crap. He is with me on this and we agree.
Now, I'm betting all of you can guess what I am saying. I am getting an Abortion. I can not afford the needs a baby requires. I can not. Joe and I both, can not afford anything for the baby. I opened my eyes a realized reality.
If any of you are mad at me for my decision, so be it. But don't sit there and freak out on me because face it, I am right. I can't afford anything at this point. I'm not doing this because Joe wants it. I'm doing this because right now, it would be the best. I also know most of you will sit there and say shit like, "Abortion is not the best thing!" well, I know it isn't but then again, how am I going to feel when our child comes to Joe and I about why we left? How am I going to deal with being treated like crap by our child for the decision I made. Plus, there is some nutso people out there that would do anything wrongly to a child. Why would I want to do that if I gave the baby up for adoption.
I don't want to hear anyone being pissed off at me. You can but don't attack me with my decision. Maybe you should think about these thing's when you get pregnant girls. You'll know what I am talking about if you are not in the position to take care of a child.
Kari 
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| Well, I have alot to say. I am engaged to Joe and also 8 weeks pregnant....Joe wants me to get an abortion and it hurts like hell. Not only that but today I found out that if the fam and I think about it we all might move to Oklahoma City. Which would put me smack in the middle of where all my online friends are at. But the thing is, I have close friends here too at home. Shit...if I decide to keep the baby...Joe is going to be around that I know of and yeah. I just don't know what to do anymore. I'm scared about everything and in love with 3 guys but one I have been with for almost a year. I know that if one reads this he will be hurt like hell if he still has feelings for me. I highly doubt it but yeah. I just don't know anymore...I'm stuck as hell.... Kari | | |
|  Hey peoples, I know it's been quite a long time since I wrote. But, since I haven't written for a long time, I have alot to tell. 
Joe and I are doing good. Good shouldn't really be the word but that's only when he isn't around. For some odd reason, he isn't showing up much. I'm kinda afraid something bad will happen. And if something does...I don't know what I'm going to do..I'm tired of being hurt and I hope he doesn't kill me mentally or emotionaly. Hell, even both. It scares me that I might lose him. He makes me strong. Without him, I don't know what I would do for he is one of the best guys I have ever been with. I hope nothing goes wrong...Even though some thing's are. 
Kelsie and I are going out again. Yep...Can't remember what number this one is so far, lol. But, her and I are doing pretty good. Don't talk much but I do try. I do love her of course. Always have...
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|  Hey peoples, What's going on? Alot for me apparently. So much is happening and it's cluttering my mnd completely. I have been through alot this year and it's quite entertaining but then again stressful. I don't even want to remember most of it. But, then again, I have to remember to learn from it all. Well, let me give you an update on it all. 
Tiffany, my ex girlfriend {Fiance}. She and I are talking abit more which is good but then again, kinda hard for me. Her and I have been through alot of drama and it's hurt us both. But, we'll live and get through it all. I might go back up to see her but I can't promise anything. The thing is, if I go and see her, I don't know what will happen. I know it would be hard on the both of us because of how we were when I was there. I would love to see her again but, the fact of what happened to us still hurts. I don't know what will happen if I go back and see her. 
Bo Madsen, my best friend, my lil sister. She seems to be doing just fine. I haven't seen her since I was 15 and I'm about to turn 18 now. I haven't seen her for such a long ass time but, we still keep in touch. I hope to have her here for my b-day this year. I can't promise anything because she is living with her aunt for personal reasons. I miss her so fucking much. I can't wait til I see her again. So far that's about it. I'll come back at a later time and update more. Anyways. Buh byez peoples. Love y'all. | | |
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Hey everyone.
How has everyone been doing? I been alright. In a better mood then most days. I been happy is all. Free.
Bradley and I have had our arguements for the past week or so but last night was good. He and I talked calmly and we were bullshitting around like normal friends do. We still love eachother the same as before. Of course we all know that won't change. We will always love eachother no matter what and it will always be the same. I don't know if I told any of you this but from what I remember telling was that he cheated. Well, come to find out, he was being in abit of a pissy mood and took it out on me. So, what he did was is that he edited a conversation with a girl and made it seem like he cheated. He fucked up and he knows it. Especially now that I'm with Joe. But, he is back with the girl he was with before me. Her name is Ashleigh. She is cool to me to an extent now because last night she chewed me out for still talking to him and him and I still loving eachother. Ashleigh now realizes that whether she likes it or not, he and I will talk and will always be in love with eachother. He and I, well I from what I know so far, have made it clear to her that she can not change this. Hopefully she will get off my damn back.
Joe and I are doing just fine. He's now getting used to telling me thing's. I been having to open him up abit to tell me shit. He's used to bottling shit up and I have been doing my best to break him of it. What is bad is the fact that he and I both have nasty ass tempers and he can't control his like I can with mine. So, I also been trying to break him of exploding. He says he doesn't have much of an ego but he does. It is actually quite huge. He in some way or another also has abit of a selfish streak. It's cool though. Doesn't bother me one bit. It's kinda funny. He is also a jealous person. He got jealous when one of my ex's (James) sat next to me over on a bench at C.C. (Capital Christian). James was only seeing how I was but it was still funny. See, James sat next to me and Joe was playing Hacky Sack with a few of his friends and some other people. I was only watching. Anyways, James noticed Joe was playing the game and I was by myself for a few mins so he sat down and started talking. James kept inching closer to me and Joe saw that. So, Joe stopped playing the game and ran over to the bench, jumped over it right next to James and then sat next to me on the other side. He then wrapped his arms around me and kissed me right in front of James. I think it's cute but then again funny at the same time. Joe doesn't even want me walking around at night by myself neither. Either I have to walk with him somewhere at night or someone, say for Andrew, has to walk with me to make sure I'm okay. Joe is very sweet, loving and caring. I love him. Yes I know, I have said that I love alot of people I dated, it's only because those people I mentioned I loved? I still do to this day. There are different types of love as well. Eachand every person I said I loved, I love in a different more personal way. I will never stop loving anyone that I have said it too because it is very hard for me to do so. Plus the fact, you can't forget the ones you love most. Even if they are ex's.
That s a new pic we just took yesterday afternoon. I dressed him up and it was hot as hell.
I came up with a new quote that I made myself. Here it is, I take pride in it.
Quote: "Being Able To Be Free Is Being Able To Be Truely Happy. No Rules...Just Complete Freedom. I Have That Freedom. The Freedom To Be Happy & Proud With Who I Am Today And Explore What I Couldn't Then. "
That is how happy I have been as of late.
~Love Always And Forever~
~KariAnna~ | | |
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